i've got a lot of love and a lot of nerve,

i slept over at my bestfriend chloe's yesterday.
her mum let us sleep in, and made us vegan pancakes for lunch.
then today, we went christmas shopping. and attempted to wrap things.

it was cute.

goooood day.

oh&&,

don't close your eyes or we'll fade.

dear people who comment and actually read the things i write,

i love you.
it always makes my day when people comment.
or tell me they like the stuff i post.

or when people talk to me about how things are going since i last updated,
it makes my whole day.

i'm only crazy about one thing: youandme.

k, this is going to be annoying.
read if you please. its all sort of just nonsense.
update is sort of boring. hopefully will add some more stuff later on.

i'm sorta bummed.
i guess that's the reason it's taken me forever to update.
friday was a very bad day. very bad.
and honestly, i don't even remember it. and i was the one that made it horrible.
i've never blacked out from drinking, but friday i had.
i mean i'd drank and woken up in the morning and had pieces of my night missing before.
but never like this. it was sort of like the night never happened.
first of all, my apartment was completely torn apart, glass everywhere.
i honestly thought somebody had broken in.
not knowing what to do, i called my bestfriend chloe. who i sort of remembered seeing sometime that morning,
apparently i was doing shots, and throwing glasses and bottles, like.. after you finish one shot and you slam it down, but for some reason i thought it'd be really cool to throw them at the wall insted.
then, i went on a ramage of throwing books and everything in my way, because i couldn't find my pipe.
pretty much just got really violent and started throwing things everywhere, which isn't like me at all.
i've offically reached my all time low!
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- my phone got stolen sunday, right out of my pants.
- boyfriend has swine flu.
- fighting with my mother, again. as always, for reasons that don't even make sense.
pretty much started because i won't get the H1N1 shot. i've never really gotten a whole lot of shots. and i'm not too worried about all that stuff. i mean, i don't go and get the normal flu shot, so i don't understand why this one is such a big deal. has anybody else got it?
- i miss ethan, alot. and it's only been like a day and a half. pooooopy.
- drugs are waaaaay to hard to kick. but there is no possible way i can be a good dad, on drugs.
- i have no idea what to get anybody for christmas this year. :(

<3

+ i got all the love i need.

+ i'm going to chloe's winter formal with her, as her date ;). and she looks waaaaay too gorgeous in her dress.
+ i actually can't wait for christmas this year, with my family: sisters, ethan, cass, eliott&bestfriends. (-my mom and dad.) no drama!

+ new ipod.
+ weekend is almost herrrre.

i hate xanga.

/rant end.

everyone,

these children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast money&cheap drinks.